[soundscape] and bravely, i.

photo: ‘and so runs the world away.’

song: ra cailum — “fall in chicago”

i imagine yes is the only living thing. — ee cummings.

i imagine there is a world that is only all of our moments, strung together like the christmas tree lights of rockefeller center. that on this world of […]

[soundscape] weight

photo: ‘weight’

song: bon iver — “flume” [stream only] | buy
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“character — like a photograph — develops in darkness.” – yousuf karsh

i was twenty one, living in colorado, platinum blonde.

i was also heartbroken.

i was dating a really wonderful person. a person i love to this day. i was in love with someone else, though. someone foolish and young. someone with melancholic eyes and mischievous lips. someone vibrant and so alive. so alive, it hurt.

especially when he left.

it was a shitty situation, what i did. dating someone even though i was in love with someone else. it’s the sort of thing you never expect yourself to do; it’s the sort of thing i never expected to do. be anything less than painfully honest with someone. but it happened, and i was, and this boy and i spent a long time together; longer than i deserved with him, honestly.

when i think back at that time when i was twenty one, living in colorado, platinum blonde, heartbroken, dating a really wonderful person but in love with someone else, i am incredibly melancholic. i remember listening to this song on repeat at the time and it’s funny that now, years later, this song so perfectly embodies that time for me. not just because i listened to it incessantly during that time, but because this song is melancholic and a little dishonest and just filled with a lot of grey area. which is exactly what i was.

most of the time, i don’t think we ever get the opportunity to truly apologize for things. how, for example, could i ever apologize to this boy for being confused and involving him and loving him, but never being able to fall in love with him? how do you apologize for years of letting someone be in love with you?

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[soundscape] so much for so long

photo: ‘party crashers’

song: 13th floor elevators – “may the circle remain unbroken” [stream only] (buy) [Audio clip: view full post to listen]

‘we don’t see things as they are; we see them as we are.’ – anais nin

pain is an amazing thing, really. obviously it’s terrible in a lot of ways; […]

930 Club Hosts The Prodigy!

This Monday, May 18, the British Electropunk group that brought us such hits as “Breathe” and “Firestarter” is coming to the 930 club. We are talking about The Prodigy, and I am really excited to be attending this show. From what I have heard, all of the shows that The Prodigy have […]

In the cold, cold winter.

I have a friend who thinks about music in terms of what season it falls in. This person has some albums and bands that he correlates with “summer.” Since this is turning out to be a cold winter season, I began to think about what music reminds me of winter.

I start with one […]

The Boxing Lesson!

I love Austin, Texas.  Ask anyone who knows me, and they will tell you that I have been planning on moving to Austin for the last three years. One of the main reasons that I want to be in this great city is the music that comes out of it. Recently, I […]